Passion is Thy Name!

Friends make my world go round. Some are so dear that they are almost family. Similarly for most people, my friends are categorised according to the way we interact, the way we relate to each other and most essentially, the way our minds and hearts connect.

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Of coz there are many different levels and categories for the folks who touch our lives but for simplicity sake, let’s just call out the 2 main categories :

1. Friends
2. Acquaintances

I won’t go into details of explaining how these 2 categories work. I think you know very well how they are differentiated, ya?

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What I will go into is the category in-between those two, what I call my “FQ” - ‘Frenquaintance’. They are the ones who :

• Only contact you when they need some advice/favor/tips/etc…
• Sometimes make you feel that your friendship is one-sided
• Can’t be completely honest with you because ‘duwan to hurt your feelings mah’
• Have looks in their eyes that send out different messages to the ones verbalised to you
• Laugh at you with others behind your back (but feel slightly guilty abt it)

The thing is, these folks are closer to me in my heart than just my acquiantances but yet, they have shown/proven themselves to be less than friends.

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Of late, I realised a lot of my friends are actually my FQs. I have gone through a roller-coaster ride of emotions when I put together all their actions (or inaction) and words (or silence) in my mind.

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With a heavy heart, I wondered about how I should place them in my Life. Should I just stop initiating contact with them (most of the time, it’s one-sided anyways)?  Or should I just shut them out of my heart completely to avoid getting hurt further?

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No, I will NOT allow you folks to hurt me anymore. If my offering of a sincere friendship is not appreciated, there really is no point offering it in the first place, is there?

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Definitely not.